how to define????

IF jealous is define as hurt.........then i can say IM jealous.......
If hurt make people cry......then Im hurt........
If cry mean i care.....then i really care and think too much.....
I deserved to have all this challenge in my life........thanx GOD for the arrangement.....
Im happy....rally happy....happy when hanging around with all friends.....
I dun like alone......I dun like people not frenly......
Why they want to treat me tat way......i never hurt them before ...i treat them more than myself....
They reply me with ignore me when they got thing hanging around? they left me when the guy ask them out? they even switch off phone when then chatting with a guy that they dun like?
WAt the............
even the deep frenship, she dun want? ...........Am i the one too stupid for care this frenship?
maybe this is the real world....i shud learn to be more cruel.....
Yes...fine........try to challenge me and see.....Today, i really will fight bck....

is hard to define a true friend

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!![yawn]~~~~~
long long long time.....din sign in and update...
one and the half months din bck hometown-feeling~ miss and sad
MIss hometown foods, friends and family~~~
assignments ah.....stupid assignments~~~~~go die la...who created assignments....???

But, really thanx to my friends that always with me and cheer me up.....FRIENDS....LOVE you all...
friendship~a relationship between you and another person....that call friend?
can friend upgrade to good friend ?best friend? ...
If best friend,izit the highest level???? is tat means after best then will be normal again?
is there any friendship cycle?
me and you friend...u and her friend ........but me and her not friend ....how to explain the relationship? izit....me and her gonna be friend? or me and her wun be friend but only u and her and you and me.......?

OOPs.....i make it become complicated......
anyway, there are some people i hav to specially thax and love them......they make me happy when im down, they make me laugh when im sad, they even create a sweet home for me when im missing home, they make me proud to be with them, they make me cry becoz their deep caring, they even make me confidence all the time, their accompany make me touch and swear to myself that i will ready to serve , to help , to cheer them up anytime, everywhere. Jolin Poon Promise............