COFFEE day.....i am MAD

3.50a.m
Well............assignments make me mad, make me blur,make me died until it make me not realize tat i drink 5 pack of coffee in a day......wat.....when i c the dustin full of coffe pack then realize..watla, COFFEE not is assigmentssssssss fault..........

Hmmm.............again feel stress even streser than last semester....suddenly miss home very much....at least at home will free sometimebut here even want hanging around the GIANT only,also no time. I prefer work but not much as tat la......haiz......English shift to morning 8am, i cant wake up la........attain class also will slipz in class only. Mummy , i miss u.....here like all bully on me only, i DOU WANT. TnT ........well....prensentation last week also in bad performance....all happen in bad luck....why? Why? tell me......i suffer by eating maggie all the time also .......Why?? my buddies also, i MISS u all very much......when we can go kacau teacher again? when we can exam again? when we can together joking with teacher again? when we can together visit teacher again? when we can YAMCHA and laugh loud loud again? when we can gossip again? when we can fight again? when when when??????? where u all now???? when can gather again.......one year? two years? or maybe one day........or never?????? well......my life will alwayz not THE END whereas will alwayz to be continue.....................because i decide my own life, because i decide my own scenario,because i decide all..............is me JOLIN.....i will decide all.....

a normal wednesday

3.27am......................................Normal wednesday,did normal wholeday............ECO class boring ..haiz~~~!!!!!!two more day, presentation...i dou want...i dou want formal dressing......wat la...........i not happy today....very not.......well, today check mail and realize how amazing of life and wonderful life espeacialy the not easy life but nothing is impossible.............................................. Well........i really hope my dream can fast fast come true[ study oversea] i dou want stay here anymore.......even 1 second also dou want................
i want a new life.........really sad, i dou want my mind so messy............Please..........
I hope the next day i open my eyes , i already at New Zealand........i dou want stay here anymore...............................
Hope next day; i in NEW ZEALAND.............Hope New life; begin at there........Hope memories left; only the happiness.......................For a new life , i wish i am a "MUTE" person because i dont wish to talk more........and i want be more selfish, dou want to care others people thing,not to border other people , not to talk nonsen about people........................Well, i din mention i dun like the present me....i like to make joke for people to laugh coz that is happy when seen people happy .....Well, what i really wish is ...................(i dou no...really i dou no).................

yeah....i feel better

2.09 a.m
Still online....chat with frenz.....very serious...i mean my mood very serious...no more playful just for this moment.....the next day,i cnt garunty i will do so.....^^
The day before to day, i in very angry until scold the CSC lecturer due to not let us test and want us rush here and there do like a stupid........DAMN............reall if can i will "F" her.......haiz.......sory for "F" ...i really angry with tat....i pay.....not RM 0.10 but RM thoushand xx......she skip class never mind but once she threatmy mark of assignment or test also exam...i will even sue her in court..................................................................................................................... Yeah, my frenz...the most of the time i mad ....i playingful....BUt i will really can be very serious espeacialy academic...........
tats all for today.......................................

--- Neck breaking day--

Now is 4.07a.m.........still online but is because neck pain until cant slipz...................
But, happy also online on this time..coz meet frenz who at the opposite from us......which is just 8.45p.m...........................
Through MSN, know that she is ok and adapting there..........here, hope she will happy study there.........................Dou no why.......starting feel down through listen to the song....suddenly miss home and frenz.......
the memories of the time in secondary school start running i my mind........T_T ...........
now , i start to put in double effort for my study......so my dream can come to me.......................(i want fly oversea) maybe i manage to do that but maybe also my dream will just only a daydream............. ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cannot.......i nid to lie down....my neck break....break......................................c ya

假期在家的一个星期。。。。

回家了。。。感觉很好，一个约没回家了嘛！！
回到家一半时间是朋友的。。。当然我也有忙着陪家人啦！！陪了家人又赶去朋友的场子！！好充实的生活啊这一次的聚会并不完整哦！！ 少了她 “Z” ，不知道， 她好像在我们各自正在忙着时迷失了方向。。。。是我们的疏忽，就这样月走越远了想牵起她的手带她一起走时；一切已晚了！！
朋友，只有再这里说 SORRY！！！
生日－ 这个月可真是破产啦！！！足足有8个人生日还没加完叻！！！
开心－YVONNE 的惊喜PARTY还算成功。。。。。。。
遗憾－有的朋友很快就会去了没能有个大团体聚会。。。。。。。。
害怕－“假期作业” 好像没能做完！！
紧张－PRESENTATION 要来了啦！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
失败－ 睡眠。。。。还以为回到家，睡眠时间会长一些那知道每天7早8早就被我可爱的老妈吵醒。。。。。。。。。。。。
烦脑－很多东西要带回宿舍，很重！！怎么拿？？？
心情好烦啊，觉得好像都找不到一个有空的家伙诉说心事。。。。。。。每个都忙忙忙。。你也是，他也是。。。。。。。。。。。。你们都是！！！啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！！烦！！！！