the road not taken

well,well,well......i lost today.....dont know y ....my feeling so down today....i dou no y...................i GOT a secret....dont no wanna to splash out or not............

Sometimes, i think, some people are really stupid............Ermm~~~how i going to explain.......okokok...stop thinking that .....coz , tis case really make me in trouble......."it" make me step into "its" world then sometimes like ntg happen.In short, when"its" need you "its" stick with u but when "its" think tat u ..................haiz~~~~~~~~~~sad~~~~not going to sry coz even me also dont know what is my feeling lead and mean..............what my feeling going to warn me?? what my feeling really wanna let me know?? what...what....what....what...........damn messy feeling.....................................
Well....i think is impossible......if one day..i mean my lucky day.....when ...."it" tell me the true, i think i will no accept .......

The only fake will happen is the day together with "it"

If can,"it" i will start hate u now........and i think i already did that..........repeal my feeling to "u" is the day i feel realease..........S.T.U.P.I.D......go away...........ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hate!!!!!!

boring day

hi, i am back.........ya, i at home now.
but, my buddies at melaka.....
~~sad~~
i alone at kluang.......
with my "deer" car run here and there but just me only...not fun also.....
today went out with senior , well......ntg to say....so ...keep quite only lol..
well...ok la..just wanna meet them only....long time no c ma.....
then......really...ntg to do liao......
bored and bored and then bored again.........
slipz and slipz....
drink and eat.......
haiz~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat to do..........
well....wanna treat people eat also susah...........
y?? everything susah ........................
s*u*s*a*h
gila...................................
i mean me.......chinese new year coming soon.....fast la.....come come come..............coz, the only chinese new year we all can meet together...BUDDIES..........................................hahahahahahahahahha
I MISS U ALL........I LOVE U all........OMG.......so weird...........
for my MMU dear buddies.......GAMBATEH for exam ya..........
jia you jia you.....jia you.................................
dun say i no scared ok? i really nervous la now....i mean the final result...
haiz~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KLAUNG , additional shopping mall.....[kluang mall]....what for???
kluang so small.....people little......open also same shop......what to shop again just the shop different venue only......................
ok la..i think up to here.........so,come to here again the day i free and down lol........bye my dear readers.....

tuesday....reach home

......Finally......
I reach home.....
warm and sweet
tired, then i slipz whole day
haha....well...exam finish lo.....
suffer for one week ....now is the time for me and my foundation frenz rest le.....hurrayyyy!!!!!let me refresh......how many fast food in my stomach.....i think within one week(7 days) got 3 to 4 dayz fast food lol....and plus my maggie together is everyday gua.........walau...if my mum know sure kill me........faint.......Anyway,happy to back to here....relax~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Plan to go trip with buddies.....but not yet really finish our plan.....dun worry......today is for me to slipz tomorou my battery full then i will start my work to call here and there and search for info to trip........OVER OVER buddied.....wait for me........

and here foundation frenz will miss u all two weeks holidayz enjoy ya....


and buddies me JOLIN is back.~~~~~~~

to be continue........................................

exam fighting

Really badd mood

moody

no choice , hav to suffer for 4 days........

is final exam,wht to do.....

die...totally die.......

.....life change........

time for people slipz we study here, time for eat we study also here,time for people wake up and brush their teeth we having exam in hall...haiz~~~~

share with u all some stupid schedule....

5.30am

our breakfirst....... no time for slipz ...how?? well, luckily we hav a caring erjie....the earliest chirtmas present really let us relax a lot during this stupid streaa seasons....

tats all........i think monday then i will come in here again lol......bye....

Soon final exam for my second semestger comin....is next wednesday......so,.....i will not to come here for this few dayz until 23rd............plan to visit somwhere for holidayz but failed....coz no place to go......boring....NVM .....go ck hometown yamcha and yamcha or find a part-time job for time to pass otherwise boring until die...........what i hope at this moment is tat...fast fast fast....final fast fast pass.....i so excited.....and expect the final....not yet ready but i think i already ready half way revision ...nono!! not really sure....like i finish .ermmmmm.......dont no la....messy brain die...................so, my mood can consider bad mood due to lees talk as my mouth has a big ulcer......DAMN!! pain......no mood to do everthing....stupid ulcer......haiz~~~~~~~ok la.........people remember fight for better life ya....gud nite

A normal day...

long time no c.....busy....too busy.....
Well......assignments almost finish and start step into final exam, semester 2 Going to end .....
Hope to pass all subject no....is score what i wish....TnT miss home..........tired.......
Well...............can't think anything now......So, i want to hav a rest now...is already early morning 5.27am.......curious y i rest now?? coz already few day no well slip jor........okok!! stop here......bye c u guyz again..........................

The momeent i lost

well.......is the time i feel lost....totaly lost...............Where am i now? who am i? what am i doing? what am i being create for? y produce me? why? why? why? i am sorry world.........Is u STRESS , u make me lost finally..........u also, assignments, u cause me make a bad frenz name "STRESS"...Well, all is my fault i know.......my fault............................everyday rush for assignments..haiz, i want free time ....a totally free time.....why, why i cant have it??? At this time , wat i wish is.....please, i want rest.....rest.................got no mood to continue...i think i should stop here.....i really tired.....really.....my footstep started stop.....my spirit gone.....my mind blank....my heart sound louder like somthing to alert me to end my life......no, I don't want.....Because , there are many people waiting for me to make their life happy....please dun stop.....dun stop~~~~!!!!!

COFFEE day.....i am MAD

3.50a.m
Well............assignments make me mad, make me blur,make me died until it make me not realize tat i drink 5 pack of coffee in a day......wat.....when i c the dustin full of coffe pack then realize..watla, COFFEE not is assigmentssssssss fault..........

Hmmm.............again feel stress even streser than last semester....suddenly miss home very much....at least at home will free sometimebut here even want hanging around the GIANT only,also no time. I prefer work but not much as tat la......haiz......English shift to morning 8am, i cant wake up la........attain class also will slipz in class only. Mummy , i miss u.....here like all bully on me only, i DOU WANT. TnT ........well....prensentation last week also in bad performance....all happen in bad luck....why? Why? tell me......i suffer by eating maggie all the time also .......Why?? my buddies also, i MISS u all very much......when we can go kacau teacher again? when we can exam again? when we can together joking with teacher again? when we can together visit teacher again? when we can YAMCHA and laugh loud loud again? when we can gossip again? when we can fight again? when when when??????? where u all now???? when can gather again.......one year? two years? or maybe one day........or never?????? well......my life will alwayz not THE END whereas will alwayz to be continue.....................because i decide my own life, because i decide my own scenario,because i decide all..............is me JOLIN.....i will decide all.....

a normal wednesday

3.27am......................................Normal wednesday,did normal wholeday............ECO class boring ..haiz~~~!!!!!!two more day, presentation...i dou want...i dou want formal dressing......wat la...........i not happy today....very not.......well, today check mail and realize how amazing of life and wonderful life espeacialy the not easy life but nothing is impossible.............................................. Well........i really hope my dream can fast fast come true[ study oversea] i dou want stay here anymore.......even 1 second also dou want................
i want a new life.........really sad, i dou want my mind so messy............Please..........
I hope the next day i open my eyes , i already at New Zealand........i dou want stay here anymore...............................
Hope next day; i in NEW ZEALAND.............Hope New life; begin at there........Hope memories left; only the happiness.......................For a new life , i wish i am a "MUTE" person because i dont wish to talk more........and i want be more selfish, dou want to care others people thing,not to border other people , not to talk nonsen about people........................Well, i din mention i dun like the present me....i like to make joke for people to laugh coz that is happy when seen people happy .....Well, what i really wish is ...................(i dou no...really i dou no).................

yeah....i feel better

2.09 a.m
Still online....chat with frenz.....very serious...i mean my mood very serious...no more playful just for this moment.....the next day,i cnt garunty i will do so.....^^
The day before to day, i in very angry until scold the CSC lecturer due to not let us test and want us rush here and there do like a stupid........DAMN............reall if can i will "F" her.......haiz.......sory for "F" ...i really angry with tat....i pay.....not RM 0.10 but RM thoushand xx......she skip class never mind but once she threatmy mark of assignment or test also exam...i will even sue her in court..................................................................................................................... Yeah, my frenz...the most of the time i mad ....i playingful....BUt i will really can be very serious espeacialy academic...........
tats all for today.......................................

--- Neck breaking day--

Now is 4.07a.m.........still online but is because neck pain until cant slipz...................
But, happy also online on this time..coz meet frenz who at the opposite from us......which is just 8.45p.m...........................
Through MSN, know that she is ok and adapting there..........here, hope she will happy study there.........................Dou no why.......starting feel down through listen to the song....suddenly miss home and frenz.......
the memories of the time in secondary school start running i my mind........T_T ...........
now , i start to put in double effort for my study......so my dream can come to me.......................(i want fly oversea) maybe i manage to do that but maybe also my dream will just only a daydream............. ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cannot.......i nid to lie down....my neck break....break......................................c ya

假期在家的一个星期。。。。

回家了。。。感觉很好，一个约没回家了嘛！！
回到家一半时间是朋友的。。。当然我也有忙着陪家人啦！！陪了家人又赶去朋友的场子！！好充实的生活啊这一次的聚会并不完整哦！！ 少了她 “Z” ，不知道， 她好像在我们各自正在忙着时迷失了方向。。。。是我们的疏忽，就这样月走越远了想牵起她的手带她一起走时；一切已晚了！！
朋友，只有再这里说 SORRY！！！
生日－ 这个月可真是破产啦！！！足足有8个人生日还没加完叻！！！
开心－YVONNE 的惊喜PARTY还算成功。。。。。。。
遗憾－有的朋友很快就会去了没能有个大团体聚会。。。。。。。。
害怕－“假期作业” 好像没能做完！！
紧张－PRESENTATION 要来了啦！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
失败－ 睡眠。。。。还以为回到家，睡眠时间会长一些那知道每天7早8早就被我可爱的老妈吵醒。。。。。。。。。。。。
烦脑－很多东西要带回宿舍，很重！！怎么拿？？？
心情好烦啊，觉得好像都找不到一个有空的家伙诉说心事。。。。。。。每个都忙忙忙。。你也是，他也是。。。。。。。。。。。。你们都是！！！啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！！烦！！！！

YAYA........Lawyer LIM take good care and goodbye

haha......feel comfort now......fnish my present for Lawyer LIM......haiz...feel a bit sad la......not so wish to say goodbye but force to..............GOODBye wiinie........MISS U ALWAYZ ya......^^ the day u come back we just go yamcha la...........ok? promised
I want to go back gather but i fail to do it due to the bus ticket ......
well.....long time no come hee and write my feeling lol....a bit busy..............
Hmmmmmm..................compare to otherz i not that busy la actualy........coz c my dajie and erjie busy until eat also no time.....................a bit stress lol .oops......is very stress nt a bit only^^
yaya.....just finish celebrate my lover MAYBANK 18th bithday....haha so sweet.............
Hmmmmmmm.......................i wanna thank you also for them who celebrate my 18th birthday ya..........................thank you reallly touch that day .......i wil never never forget it.............
Well.......sad also la...........family not around when i step into 18th............
But, i really grown up lol
so happpy................................................................................................
So, end here......
and goodbye winnie..........if possible i will try my best to airport ya...........T@Ke c@re

@ feelingless dayzzzz

what a stupid day today.....
mind blank.heart beat stop(no died yet) breath hard..........bone all damn "sour".......

And why my mind so annoyed....i really can't stop it......and felt my movement and what i do are not control by me,like another person controlling me......why?
Blur too............Anyway, i really hated that feeling......................
my frenz said stress, but what stress? from where the stress........
Re@lly a stress? Ya, i study accounting this whole day......but izit ....really a stress?
Anyway i will recover d...........
and one thing......wahahaha my lovely frenz cook ABC soup for us....................gud la
Here lo, i would like to thank and tall al my college frenz........love u all so so so much
and thank you

火球吗？

热热热！！ 想烧死我是不是。。。。。。。。。。。。一整天都酱热。。。。
都已经很黑了还晒。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
今天有点“早”睡（4。00 a.m) 就睡不下。。。然后爬起来。。。。。。。。。
有这样无无聊聊得过了。。。。。。下一个的天亮又来了。。。什么吗！！！
世界啊世界，时间啊时间。。。你们步行可不可以慢慢慢。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我追得你们好累好累。。。。。。。。=_=！
就快崩溃了啦！！！我很想放手让自己解脱了啦！！有谁能真真的了解我的心情？counsellor吗？好朋友吗？谁？谁？ 很烦。。。。。。。常常叫别人不要烦简单想想过不复杂的生活，原来不容易。。。。。
努力过而得到的东西才会被珍惜；原本拥有的却只会短暂的区珍惜。我努力的去争取每样东西并珍惜它们；而此时的我只希望每样东西是我已拥有的。 那么我就不必那么的累了。。。。。不可能吧？
就好像天下哪有白吃的午餐呢？
我很累。。。真的很累。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。TnT
好了，今天就到此吧！！
有点乱。。。不知道想什么。。。。。。。脑子里一片空白。。。。。。。。。。。心也好像缺氧好辛苦啦！！

无奈。。。但尝试接受这些无聊天

一天一天无聊的过去。。。。。。。觉得还快。。。。。。。
但，好像都没有过得很快了耶？！ 有嘻嘻哈哈过每一天但好像不是快乐。。。。。
功课越来越少代表着假期越来越近也意味着考试的来临。。。。好怕。。。虽然有在做准备但还是缺乏一些些来自外界的鼓励勉励。。。。。。。。。没有想家了。。因为回一趟家真的好累好累。。。。。。反而怕起自己的家了。。学校好冷清哦！！ 无聊的要命。。。。。不过还好因为有测验所以有东西忙。。。。。。。。。。。。。咖啡麻醉不了孤单是对的，它只能让你喝了睡不着然后当身边的人睡着后让你变得很孤单。。。哈！！
想在DSA做兼职，妈妈好像不肯也。。。。。。。好了。。。。我下决心了，我不要驾车来上课了，实在太太太危险了！！一个粗心或一个倒霉就可能在马路上陪上性命。。我不想爸爸妈妈妹妹弟弟还有其他人伤心。。。。。。。。。搭学校巴士也好啦！
今天有这样马马虎虎的过了。。。。明早又要被闹钟吵醒，又要起身，又要吃饭，又要看书，又要思考，又要无聊的期待下一个天亮。。。。人生就如此吗？所以我说啊。。。。。我喜欢惊喜因为惊喜让我的生活突然有改变不会平平凡凡的过。。。。。。。。。做自己也是我人生的目标，做有性格的自己更是我挑战的人生。笑一笑让自己看起来更有活力。记得不管怎样都不要伤心；因为 1分钟的伤心同时也让你失去 60分钟的快乐。 快乐与伤心那个比较有价值呢？

就这样我天天都为自己创造惊喜并让自己努力的快乐过每一天。。。希望以也是。

我回来了。。。总结我的可恶日子来了。。

想想。。。。。。回忆一下过去。。。。
对了，星期五的时候竟然搭错巴士去夜市。。。。。都是巴士老的错啦。讨厌他
结果花了一笔去搭TAXI。。。。。还有最无聊的是，学校变得好冷清啊！考完试，每个都回家只有我们课的同学还在上课。。。好无聊啊！！！像监牢，我们仿佛被关着。。。。。要出去可是又没地方去。。。。。。。。。。。二姐，大姐又回家了。。。闷！！-_-!好吧。。会想念你们的。。。。假期愉快^^
希望你们不要将快回来（因为你们会来的时候就代表我们的考试到了）哈！！
过后叻。。。。。就星期六。。。我们睡了大半天才醒....过后洗洗床单，衣服。。。。。。。。。然后大扫除还把房间摆设换了叻！！好舒服，有新的环境。。。。。开心。。。。。就酱又一天的无聊过了。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。晚上啊。。。为了慰劳自己吃了果条后又吃汉堡。。。。。赞！！！
好了。。。又要从新期待下一天的到来。。。。。。。人生就如此吗？忙忙忙，忙完了。。。。。。。。又期待下一天然后又开始忙。。。。。。。。。。。怎么这样？
我累了。。。。很怕会停下脚步。。。。。。。。。。

欢迎我回来了

完整的度过一个星期六。。。

没去成啊！！！KL，公共假期所以怕太多人。。。。。

不过还好啦，因为学姐啊，又叫我们一起去打篮球，篮球哦~~只从小学校队后就没碰过篮球了啦！！所以，下午打球时有点大失水准。。。。。。。。。。。。。

yaya, is our lovely seniour.....

过后呢？

哈哈，我们吃了大餐哦！！！！！美味的火锅。。。。。哇哈哈哈哈。。。。

就是这个大餐咯！！！！好饱啊！！！！经济又购饱！！！！ “赞”

好了，要睡了，明天要去MELAKA。。。。。。。。。。。

晚安咯。。。。。。

FROM:J

时间宝贵啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

walau,现在才知道时间原来是这么宝贵的。。。。。。

不够用啊！！！！！！怎么办？没有睡觉的时间了！以前温习功课都只会到12点多可是在COLLEGE竟然是到凌晨4点多！！！！！！！！！！以下就是见证。。。

1.)温习到一半。。。。 2.)过后肚子饿。。。

3.)吃饱后就一直读到。。。。。

真的好累哦！！！！！！！！！！！！

虽然已夜深人静了，可是还好有个可爱的二姐（senior)竟然在电脑前陪我度过最夜的晚上。。。。谢咯！！！二姐会爱你多点的哦，不会欺负你的。。。。

哈哈，不过第一次熬夜还好也。。。。因为都没觉得累啊！！

咳。。。。。。。。。真快，一个星期就酱要过完了。。。。。。真的好想吃粽子啊!!!!!!!星期天是端午节，WUWUWUWU~~~~~没得和家人一起吃粽子。。。。。。。我要。。。

神~啊！救救我吧，我要吃粽子，你能给我一个吗？（要肉的，最好有咸蛋）

好了！！就酱。。。。。。

jolin要睡了。。。。拜拜，朋友们

无奈的一天

又杯面，太无聊了！！

怎样的无奈呢？就是无奈咯！！！

明天MGT有个测验，好担心哦！！！！

不过只好努力读咯.....真想大喊但没地方喊。。。。。。。妈妈。，有常打来，不过还是很想家！！！！电话里都不敢和妈妈抱怨，不然他会担心。。。。。。不过，为了让我忘了想家的习惯我选择压力来让我没时间想起他的事。。。。。。。。。

总之，我不会放弃！！！！！！！

Anyway,我现在很想吃粽子叻！！！！！

感激

在NIUC 已经大约要一个月了!!已经习惯了,认识了很多朋友他们都对我们好好噢!!!!!!朋友的名字我就不一个个烈出来了因为怕烈少了!!!!!!!!!!
我会珍惜的!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
当然在NIUC里最感谢的当然是两位漂亮可爱的<大姐>&<二姐>啦!!!!!!!!!!
她们真的很照顾我们哦!!!!!!!!!!!而且还是很用心的呢!! ^^
两位可爱的姐姐到底可爱在那里呢? "他们都是闹钟的克星"!!!!!!永远不会被闹钟吵醒!!!! ^0^
哈哈!!!!!!要测验了!!!!好怕! 因为是第一次在COLLEGE 测验,不知到会怎样!!!!!-_-

happy............

hahaha...........................................can say in colege life is very boring.........but i want to thnkz god ...


Thankz god becoz they giv me the best luck in the world so that i met two god sister in my life.


Da jie Eileen...........Erjie si ting ...................


They really take care of us very well.............really appreciate...............


Thank you for them...........................


If can i would like to shout for other to let other now that how king and how good they r..........


Ha...........but it a bit crazy.....................................


I know one day they maybe will forget who i am .....................maybe after they get marry...............


But Dun worry i will not....................................forget them...........................................never


Coz i will appreciate forever...............................


for this.....................I will noted down in my diary so that it will not last forever.....................


For my frenz also.......................

really love u all ya

From: J

Is a good dayz

Today my parentz is visit me in nilai college ..............very touching.......they accompany me whole dayz then back to kluang. ^^

thankz daddy & mummy and sis & bro also la

well, today i start to plan a lot thingz to cope my homesick.So, i go jogging with da jie.^^not really jog just walk.

well,tomorou is shi min first birthday in college so i and jih jia plan a lot of thingz to giv her a suprise..........So we plan to sleep at 12.00 a.m but now is already 12.40a.m liao.............haha......wawawawawa................nvm la........just for shi min....haha

ok i think the next day college life will be more intersting.......................

shi min birthday & cake

From:

J

mad dayz

wawawa.........is friday.is the day i can go back hometown but finally not going back,becoz of some problems.
well,i think is ok coz sunday my parentz want to come and visit me.But,sunday is mother's day,i hoope i can go back but............Anyways,just forget about it.Next week stil can go back.Take it easy.
But one thingz i feel sory is that i can't send chia chia and yong perng go study,so my frenz sory ya.
well.well.well........monday is shi min birthday only me and jih jia can selebrate with her,so today i and jih jia are mad to think what supries that we can giv to her in college.This is the first year she pass her birthday in college,so we want it be the first unforgetabel birthday in college.

well,lunkily today just hav only 3 class so is free today.
HoPe the naxt day will bring me good...........


from: J